Fierce is Not Enough

I am taking this class called Performance Craft this semester, and it’s been awesome since day 1. Our book is called “A Soprano on her Head” by Eloise Ristad and it’s amazing. All about finding your “voice” as a performer, getting to the root of your problems when performing, and how to fix them.

Today we were talking about our “Judges”, those shadows/people/figures who tell us to be normal, stop acting silly, conform, etc., and how to change them into positive influences on ourselves, and get rid of the negative side.

Anywho, my entire class was laying on the floor while the professor walked us through a meditation thing, and my mind, being crazy, wandered while still focusing on the task. At one point, she (the professor) asked us to change our Judges into flies/bugs/etc, and mine became empty chocolate wrappers (of course the softig guy had that happen). I didn’t even try to make them something, just happened, and at one point, when I was throwing them away in my mind image, my right hand jerked involuntarily and it was awesome. I was so “in” myself that I didn’t react to it more than just a reflection, but when I came back to myself and analyzed what happened, the candy wrappers made sense, and my body reacted even though I didn’t ask it to. 

See, I love junk food. Hell, I have had a love affair with Zebra cakes the past few days that is not healthy. I digress. To my mind, empty candy wrappers meant taking the good and ‘positive’ aspects of my Judges into myself, and then throwing away that which is not needed, negative, harmful, etc. 

Anyway, was an awesome experience, and just felt like sharing it. :) 

Ta